ROCK HUDSON-ALL THAT HEAVEN ALLOWED (2023)

Rock Hudson-All That Heaven Allowed


There were few male Hollywood stars in the 1950s and 1960s who were more popular than Rock Hudson.
This documentary dives into the life of Roy Harold Scherer Jr who was born in 1925 in Illinois, America, moved to Hollywood in 1946 after serving in the Navy in World War 2 as an aircraft mechanic and found himself an acting agent in 1947, Henry Wilson, who gave him the name Rock Hudson.
He made his film debut in Fighter Squadron in 1948 and soon after he was signed to Universal Studios with a long-term contract where he received lessons in acting, singing, dancing, fencing and horseback riding, the 5 must-haves for stars of the day. He hit superstardom in 1954 with his leading role opposite Jane Wyman in Magnificent Obsession directed by Douglas Sirk. 
Sirk and Hudson made 9 movies together and Sirk mentored Hudson into the role of a decent actor.
Hudson was 6ft 5″ tall, charming, handsome and perfect Hollywood star material.
His work with Sirk cemented his popularity.

Rock on vacation in Puerto Vallarta (Photo courtesy of Lee Garlington).

Actress Illeana Douglas is one of the many people interviewed for this documentary including former lovers and close friends of the star and she says in the film:
“Sirk is German, he’s making these movies as an outsider about our American values and kind of poking holes in them. Sirk created a signature style which is it’s so beautiful but if you look underneath the surface, under the white picket fences, you’re gonna see how torrid and ugly everything is.”

So, in a sense, Hudson was a perfect muse for Sirk in being able to bring the hidden element to his roles.
As, unbeknown to the public, Rock Hudson was a gay man.

Douglas goes on to say:

“Rock Hudson is playing a man called Rock Hudson who is the personification of Americana.
The identity was given to him and he slipped into it and he played it for the rest of his life.”

This is key to understanding the man. He was an expert in playing the role. The documentary shows that he was an affable, kind man who was always the life and soul of the party. He went on to make many cinematic hits including his only Oscar nominated performance in Giant (1956) and had great success in the romantic comedy, Pillow Talk (1959) with Doris Day where he pretends to be gay in order to get together with Day in the film.


When he made John Frankenheimer’s sci-fi classic, Seconds (1966), the public didn’t respond well. It was a film in which Hudson portrayed a man who suffered and in a sense, the narrative and his character and the arc of the film was very close to what he had been living, a double life, a wearing of a mask in public.
The public wanted the Rock Hudson they knew. The clean, fun, light-hearted Rock, not the dark Rock, they wanted the light Rock, not the emotionally turmoiled Rock and this is a massive shame as he is probably the closest to his inner self in Seconds.
The public had been fed this other, contrived version for so long, they weren’t interested in seeing the real.

The themes in Seconds are deep, the idea that you can reset your life and start again and the realities of what that could be like.
These must have resonated with Hudson on some level.
I had read that Frankenheimer wanted Kirk Douglas or Laurence Olivier to play the lead as he felt they were real actors as opposed to Rock Hudson who he felt didn’t have the chops. Here though, Hudson gives a performance that should have been given more notices and suggests the actor could have become had he been given the opportunity.

On the one hand, this is documentary is a very sad story. Who was Rock Hudson? Who was Roy? By the end did Roy or Rock know? The film’s director, Stephen Kijak shows us this gentle mans journey from ordinary Illinois boy to Hollywood superstar all the while hiding this secret from the outside world. On another hand it seems that he seemed to have had a lot of fun, many laughs, great friends and some incredible highs during his short but busy life.

Rock Hudson, 1954

In 1984 he was diagnosed with HIV and was still in the closet like many other gay men at the time and had to suffer behind closed doors. 

The reveal of his AIDS diagnosis near the end of his life happened during the Ronald Reagan administration which was famous for its absolute lack of help or acknowledgement of the disease. Reagan had been supported and elected by the Christian Right and because of this, he kept quiet on the subject for too long. Too many people died.

The documentary takes us through Hudson’s life all the way to his death and shows us how the Hollywood superstar, who was a warm and generous man, helped many people who were suffering from HIV and AIDS by his announcement that he had also contracted this unforgivable disease.

Hudson put a face to the disease, he gave people hope, he was the all-American boy and with his death in 1985 at 59 years old, he changed the narrative around AIDS and caused people to take notice in a way that made a massive difference, the doors were opened for the light to be shined upon HIV and AIDS and studies and research was finally undertaken. He was the first famous person to die from the disease and as such helped more people than he could have ever imagined.

One participant holds a sign saying “We love you Rock” during a three-hour walkathon through Hollywood, Calif., July 28, 1985, in a fundraising effort sponsored by AIDS Project Los Angeles. More than 2800 people participated in the walkathon, which netted an estimated $630,000 to be used for AIDS prevention education and support services for victims. (AP Photo/Jim Ruymen)

The film is a beautiful look at the life of a man living in a time and industry that denied him the right to be himself. I’m sure there are many many people who can relate to his plight. The music by Laura Karpman is lyrical, uplifting and tender and Stephen Kijak directs a touching homage to one of Hollywood’s greats.

See it now on a streaming platform near you.
1hr 44mins

STYLEBENDER (2023)

Stylebender poster


There’s a moment about 35 minutes into this insightful and revealing documentary where our protagonist, Israel Adesanya is in a therapy session with his ‘Mobile Possibility Manager’ aka therapist, Janet Redmond and she is asking him to dive deep into his emotions on why he wanted to fight to begin with, what drives him and as he does so he experiences firstly anger but after a while transitions to sadness and with some guidance from …… Izzy lets some tears go. He talks about his depression after becoming champion and Janet mentions that depression is where anger and sadness meet.
This is revelatory for him and for me.

It’s a beautiful moment that tells us much about the mindset and emotional intelligence of the UFC Middleweight Champion. He has a vulnerability that is so refreshing and he is unafraid to show it.

Israel Adesanya
Israel Adesanya

It’s rare to see someone so famous be so open. To allow the cameras into a therapy session is brave. Yes, there can be cynical motives to this but this seems real. He started fighting to stop being bullied, to feel like he had power, and not feel helpless. This is a common reason for fighters and the drive to beat the old-school bully/bullies who used to pick on them. It creates a fire, an anger, and a sadness that always lies close to the surface, giving the fighters the edge they need to be the best. Izzy reached that goal. He became the champion of the world.

Let’s rewind for a second, in 2016 I was introduced to a cracking MMA drama series called Kingdom (I highly recommend it btw) by my friend and podcast (Punching Up-The Movie Podcast) co-host Adam Nightingale, this led me to watch a documentary called The Hurt Business, which takes a look at the rise of Mixed Martial Arts (MMA for the initiated) through the eyes of some of the sports top stars at the time, including the biggest draw in 2016, Ronda Rowsey. I mention this because it got me into MMA and the UFC and today, 7 years later I am still watching the big show.

In 2017, Israel ‘The Last Stylebender’ Adesanya, born in Nigeria and moved with his family to New Zealand when he was 10, was signed to the biggest organisation in MMA, and was 11-0 in professional MMA, no easy feat.
His first fight for the UFC came in February 2018 and he then went on a tear, he became the Middleweight Champion of the world a mere one and a half years later in October 2019.

Since joining the UFC he won his next 9 fights before going up a weight class from Middleweight to Light Heavyweight and was beaten by the champion at the time, Jan Blachowicz. He was still the Middleweight Champion and he defended his belt three more times.

I mention this because I watched all of his fights and always looked forward to seeing him in the Octagon. He was always outstanding, seeming to see every attack before it was launched by his opponent.

He is a star. He has charisma, skill and he loves anime (his nickname is taken from the anime Avatar: the Last Airbender).
He is a self-confessed geek, proud of it and boy can he fight.

This documentary directed by Zöe Macintosh shows the raw vulnerable side of Izzy and his relationship with New Zealand’s famous Auckland City Kickboxing Gym owner and trainer, Eugene Bareman.

Eugene Bareman

Eugene Bareman

The film shows Adesanya’s roots in his love of dancing (Krumping, a powerful sometimes violent form of dance that expresses raw emotions and vulnerability) and his early encounters with school bullies which led him to the gym. There is a revealing scene where he visits his old school and is filmed Krumping in the bathroom. It is a powerful moment.

Israel Adesanya at his old school

Israel Adesanya at his old school

The film shows how he is not afraid to embrace his feminine, sensitive side as well as his brutal masculine one. This is an example of a complete human being, the masculine and feminine working together like the yin-yang relationship. 

“I wear what I want,” he says. “My nails, they call them French tips, I like the way they look. Who says they’re just for girls. Pearls look good on my black skin, they pop off nicely. So, who the fuck said they are for girls? I wear what I want. For me, it’s being confident and standing in who I am. My body evoking a strong emotion in someone else to the point where they comment – they never say it to my face – that says a lot more about them than it does about me. The fact that it pisses people off, that’s the icing on the cake.” 

Izzy getting his nails did

Izzy getting his nails did

He is unapologetic and unrelenting and this is refreshing and a welcome change to the hyper-masculine normality in the fight game.

Stylebender shows his journey through the UFC to superstardom, fame and all the trappings this ever-so-fickle companion can bring to the table. He is a work in progress, like us all and is unafraid to admit character failure and again vulnerability.

“Who is Israel Adesanya? I’m still trying to find that out,” Adesanya says. “I’m never just one person. I’m 33 now, when I was 12 I’d look at people my age and think: ‘they’re adults, they’ve got it figured out.’ When I was 18, I thought I’d be married with kids by age 24, and boy was I wrong. I’m 33 and I’m just trying to figure it out like everyone else. There’s no ‘who am I?’ I am who I am.” 

This is a top documentary, engaging, likeable and informative and not only for fans of MMA.

See it now.

1 hr 42 mins